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sms u todae.. but u nv reply..
i knw i hurt u badly..
in fact i knw too.. i feel hurt
badly in pain.. i tok u tt i didn't wann u to be my sweetheart
it was all a lie.. i can't stand it!!
i really wann u to knw tt i really treasure u alot..
i dun knw wad i did
i dun knw if i did was rite
i dun knw if there's still a chance to be back 2gether
i dun knw if u will sms me
i dun knw if u still haf me in ur heart.. which u always say
i dun wann to see u hurt
i dun wann to see u cry
i dun wann to see u feel sad for me
i dun wann to see u drop a tears for me
i wann to help u see the rainbow
show u tt even if the world is black to u
there's is still me to show u the colours
i wann u to knw tt i really need u
i wann u to knw tt i am very frustrated
i really damn sad
i really am waiting to see u sms me!!
wiill be waiting no matter wad happenss...
remember tis.. u told me!!
"dang quan shi jie bu li ni,wo bu hui bu li ni,
wo hui yi zhi mo mo de shou zai ni de shen pang,dang shou hu ni de tian shi"
i nv dare to delete tis!! becos i still lurve u!! sweetheart!!
"Jepher"-25-
my name is nw jepher.. my friend help me choose de.. danping say tt jeph better.. but i tink jepher better la.. haha.. so in short also can be jeph.. ya.. haha.. wonder how is dan ping.. she nv sms me.. then in camp.. kaox.. missing her.. haha.. my sweetheart!! i am slacking la!!
bleghx..
"*" Jepher"*"-25-
the dae i became PLA.. haix..
i jus dun get it..haix..
since u all sae tt i shld be den i shall repect u guys by changing my label..
hmmm... weird huh?!
took neos with danping on 18/07/05
took neos with ChloE,Hu yU,JeDd on 19/07/05
bleghx.. going to put them on friendster..
nth to sae.. just sad tt's all..
"*"Steph"*"-25-
i got nth to sae lei.. how.. i am damn depressed lei.. hit my hand again the glass tink also not pain.. no matter how many times i hit lor.. den.. my hand the cut also nt pain de.. i really dun knw wad to do.. sarahh saw colleen jedd n anita.. then she went off tt time she send me a sms abt wad.. she will support me to stead with someone.. haix.. but den she gt some comments abt her... haix.. i dun knw la.. i got nth to say.. but then i just wann to tell her tt outside of me i treat her as friend but in my heart my inside.. i still lyk her de.. aiya.. i dunnoe lei.. if i dun tell her tt i dun lyk her le.. then went we see each other now we still veri cold towards each other lei.. i hope tt she not avoiding me lor.. n also she will tok to me.. treat me as friend..
"*"steph"*"-25-
todaee went skool damn the borin' ar.. got change into my new clothes.. wento to CCAB to watch match.. we lose to cedar girls.. damnit..
i dunnoe la.. i very sick n tired of life.. i feel lyk sleeping for daes, months,years & nv wake up!!
i really cannot lose her,Ace,jedd,jessie,sarahh,hui yu,shi yun,paulina,dan ping, sylvia,steph.phua n more tt r damn precious to me!! i treasure them lotss..i feel lyk cutting myself!! damn depressed!!
"*"Steph"*"-25-
Mum comin' backk todaee.. die le laa.. no freedom.. todae last dae.. anyways met ace at ginza plaza.. went until 10.40pm.. i rushedd home tO clear up the tinks.. jessie send me her new no. now i dun nidd to worry abtt her le.. todae again nv go skool... haha.. sort de!! i also dunnoe y i dun wann tO go!! kaoxx..
i miss u so much.. everytime i see u.i treasure the time becos is short yet sweet..
we had 2gether with the restt!!
"*"Steph"*"-25-
tmr midnite mum coming back.. sad sad.. i todae again pon skool.. jessie came my hse.. she kanna scolding n beating by parents at nite cos herr teacherr call her hsee... sad.. jedd came my hse in the mornin' she lied beside me.. i keep luffin' cos she juss smell so nyce!! makky bought 5 bottle of beer.. jedd,ace,me,makky n jessie..
hAd lotts of fun! great!!
"*"Steph"*"-25-
pon skool todaee.. haha.. jessie also .. she came my hse in the morning.. slept until 11.30am.. i bathe then get ready go tiong meet makky to buy cirgarette.. den meet hui yu,sarahh n wei shan.. overall we had fun.. after tt makky n jessie went my hse.. jessie ask me call Ace n jedd come down.. but ace gt work.. jedd dun wann come down.. so we slack lor.. stupid jessie keep on ask Ace to described "her"as in the one i lyk.. haha..
i miss u!!
"*"Steph"*"-25-
eh.. wentt outt of my granny hsEe att 10+ go homee.. then gett ready meett jessie n makky 2getherr wiff sarahh att clementii.. wEe wentt tO thee arcade lorr.. then of coss wEe alwaes play thee same game de.. para para lorr.. haha.. veri long nv play expert le.. sian!! as for makky.. alwaes playing the stupid dj tink one.. kaox.. jessie left us forr her piano lesson..then comee backk meett us.. after eating ,we meett jimmy,ah xing n ah song.. we wentt tO see hui yu they all dance.. the guyss damn boredd so they leftt.. i n jessie decided tO go my hse.. take clothes go her place stay.. we drankk beer at my hse lorr.. we both seh seh la.. wentt to jessie there.. we go student dom to stay.. cos we can't let her parents knw tt we drink so we sleep first then go her hse.. we waited till 1.30am we mett makky for a drink.. i told Ace.. then she intendd tO comee down after she finish work.. she brought her friend tOo.. call Zoe.. i hate her can!! she every sentence also got the fark work come out one.. kaox.. we slack until 6am, Ace kiss me on my right cheek.. then we sent them tO the main roadd to get a cab.. we hugged each other also.. haha.. makky offered me to smoke so i try lorr.. also no harm.. haha.. i miss her so much lor.. even jessie can feel tt i deeply in lurve with her lorr..
9 n 10 of july..
"*"Steph"*"-25-
todaEe herr b'dae..ytd i wishh herr a happy b'daEe.. anywayss i amm happy forr herr...becoss she celebratingg herr 18b'daEe leii.. hopeE shee hadd funn lorr..
aRgh.. badd newss..i have tO grandmA hsee to stay.. haha.. butt of coss whuu dunn wann tO stay at homee alone ritee.. stayy at homee cann slackk.. hahaha.. i hopee tt my grandMa lett me go home stay the next daee.. after my mum n sis go hong kong.. then i can haf the whole house!!of coss granny dun allow.. cos my mama tell her sae dun let me go home stay..kaox.. now.. thanks tO thEe CaT.. i sneezin' all the way le.. n also i got sore eyes lei.. then the fur keep on make my eye.. nt feeling well now.. haha.. stupid me.. go n pet the cat.. butt i lurvve my granny cAt.. haha..
"*"Steph"*"-25-
last dae to her birthdae!!!
gt back my phone.. dun knw if shld sms her.. haix.. i today also veri helpless.. no mood in class.. nv listen in class..gt distracted.. die liao.. this year sure stay back.. haix.. how.. today tt gwen go n use pen knife try to cut her wrist.. then it make me think of her hand.. can't imagine her holding the pen knife cutting herself.. ahh.. i really damn hurt!!
didn't come online?! but i wished her a happy b'dae! hope tt she can be veri happy.. n also enjoy her dae with her friends!! hmm.. haix.. i sort of miss her! kaoxx!! damn sian!!
boring dae in sch.. tt backstabber keep following my group of friend for recess.. kaox.. no shame one!! dun feel lyk going out.. went home.. slack.. tok to jedd.. yupps..
2 Daes to her birthdae!!
as for her.. no sign of her lei.. i dun dare to sms her liao becos no reply one.. feel so sick n tired of life.. miss her..
3 daes to her birthday!!
went to sch.. went with sarah,paulina n makky to play bowling at safra.. i gt the highest score.. haha.. anyways.. wo hen xiang ku!! haix.. nvm.. dun wann my friends to feel sad..
so won't say anything!!
woke up quite early.. went out of my hse at 12pm towards chinese garden. go jessie hse. sarah hui yu shi yun jimmy makky ah xing all there.. hmm...ah xing n jimmy play bball.. sarah n makky dating la.. shi yun n hui yu in the lounge doing work.. i n jessie play game.. it goes lyk this.. normal swimming pool reaches the thigh there.. we play sissors paper stone.. lose go down one step.. haha.. in the end i lost.. haix.. the next game is the big pool.. we play another game.. i lose again.. so the bid was also bigger.. i jump into the pool!! cool!! damn shiok also.. cos very warm tt dae.. haha.. anyways.. both of us went into the water.. be sporty ma.. haha.. yupps.. play until ard 6pm we went home lor..
i still miss her badly..
"*" Steph"*"-25-
is damn de boring la! kaox.. anyways.. i slept at ard 3am again cos nxt day no sch.. youth day ma! haha.. so yupps.
haha..stupid title..anyways.. saturdae i went to meet hui yu they all at shaw house at 4+ then we went to take the mrt at 6+ to sembawang to watch the american Indepence's Dae fire works!total got abt 8 or 9 of us..
hui yu.shi yun.sarah.makky.jimmy.ah xing. one small boy.jessie.Me.
it looks so different.. gt heart shape de! cool! anyways.. u guys might think tt i veri lame cos lyk nv seen fireworks be4 lyk tt.. finish at ard 8+ den we play bball nearby the stage! there were loud music ard! we also drank beer there.. shiok.. yummy!!after tt sarah me makky n jimmy went to clementi aracade.. den i went to sarah hse to stay becos my mum sure lock me out of the hse..we listen to music such as "how do i live without u" n it reminded me of her![hurt n confused]..i feel tt i am damn weak lor! we play until 3am in the morning den went to bed.. i woke up at 6.45am to get out of her hse cos i 8.30am got a programme.. something lyk amazing race lor.. yuppx..
i damn long nv post liao.. haix.. damn sick n tired of life! i am so pissed off nw..
i can't go for taekwondo for the time being.. being stop by mum n also by my old injuries..
veri long nv go for my cca=swimmin.. haix.. no interest in anythin now..
use to lurrve swimming lots last tym. bt nw?!i really dun knw wad to do!!
as for tkd? becos of my bloody results n also My BLOODY OLD INJURIES!!
so damn pissed? my feelings now?! ALL!! angry,sad, lonely.. n so on.. i really dun knw wad to do!
mixed feelings! aHHhH.. confused n lonely..
here i go screaming my lungs out
trying to get u
but no matter how i try
i just can't reach u[hurt n confused]
i am so tired of life
dun knw how to continue
jus feel lyk i shldn't be here
nv did i expect to lyk u
but it did
confused confused!!
i wanna fly with the angels
to GOD!!
"*" Steph "*" -25-
