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What is love?
love is a word
It is also devotion
It is pleasure, passion, And tenderness
Love knows no limits Love is perfect, it is attachment
Love is special, it is heavenly
is kind, sympathetic.
Love is joy, reason, feeling, sacrifice and serving
Love is to care
Love keeps back all things
Love brings love Love is a great gift
Without love there is no life;
loving is living Living is to walk the earth,
Be alive see the light
Labels: still NOT READY FOR GOODBYEtis is e last night im gonna be alone at home :)
im really hoping mummy n jie is back home ,
due to im alil scare okiies!
anyways,
finish work todae at 8pm den sri waited for miie :) LOVES LA!
den online plae with min , chatted with darryl kor and coll korr.
since iie heard tat uue are doin fine , iie wish uue all the best,
iie knw ii've alreadi given my word to nvr love uue again ,
iie hoppe tat uue do still gimmi sometym,
iie will NOT LOVE UUE ANYMORE .
iie knw iie HAF NO MORE HOPES ALREADI.
GIVE UP STEPPHHHYYY!
UUE CAN MAKE IT :)
tml working again <3>
:D
miiting berber and min they all on wedd , x33
nitex ppl .
going to 7-11 now :)
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my eye swollen for daes lerhhs!
verii pain :(
its been a week and ii'm not having a good rest ,
due to no off dae @_@
verii tiring and sleepy,
anywayys, todae iie went to work
and iie heard tat someone frm giant died at the lobby bay
due to him falling off the top to the bottom with his head.
iie am really sadd to hear tis tink. but maybe tats life.
anywayys, just dl-ed the stupid MSN @_@
damn stupid lorhhs!
now chatting with berber . and some others,
:)
okiies verii lazyy to type now. GOING OFF :D
BYEBYE BLOGGY <33
may 13, tuesday ,
now is 9am in the morning and im blogging ,
all these last 3 daes.
im going to work soon again , till nitex ,
am really slpy,
and im sickk, but if iie dun go,
no one's gonna help mother :(
s0 yes , no MC :(
go to work !
may 12 , mondayy,
as usual Lis work morning shift ,
miie and mother afternoon shift till closing.
iie just dun get it why my stupid company,
dun wann to hire anymore full tymers @__@
wadeva, it is iie just wann to get my pay asap :D
toking abt our pay in 2 weeks tym ,
sri and iie want to go johor tgt ,
JUST the 2 OF US!! whee :))
it's gonna be great, SRI! :DD
anywayys, watchedd tv till 2am.
may 11, sundayy,
kah wah(part-tymer) is not coming todae,
with his always stupid excuses lyk wad mc, and stuff.
as usual ,=.=
at least fizah came todae.
so 3 of us work , due to kah wah not coming ,
they ask miie to OT again for 2 hours,
and iie agreed , cos mother ask miie to stay :D
am really gonna be exhaustedd due to ,
pauline take her anuual leave for 1 week plus,
we haf no off day. T___T
it was really tiring okiies , iie SWEAR!
may 10 , saturday.
its been so long ; since iie blogggyy.
last sat , at my work place was a mess ok!
iie swear.after 4 pm my stupid cash machine ,
JAM FOR 4 TYMS!
and ''MOTHER'' aka teresa (section leader),
pos machine HANG ALSO . and she couldnt log in ,
after we restarted it .
and the 2 stupid part -tymers, nvr come .
end up we 2 working onlii, and the queue was so LONGGGGG.
barely haf the tym to breathe . hahahaha!
pauline aka my supervisor cashier ,
SHE WAS ON HER ANNUAL LEAVE LARHHS! not FAIRRRRRR.
cos of the 2part tymers dint come ,
MR TOH (DM) ask miie to stay back another 2 hour @_@
which iie did not , and demanded to go home .
cos it was tooo tiring to w0rk alreadii.
at times, we feel scare to love, to care, to give.
A love goes wrong and we mourn over it for zillion years..
past heartaches are there to remind us the mistakes that we made,
the choice we once had and the lesson tt goes along with the pain, to start anew.
forgetting the pain, the ache.
its harder than draining the vast sea.
forgiving, not forgetting...
does it make the painful process heal faster?
the fear of getting hurt and not giving all.
does that cause us the chance to find someone right?
and if there is really a someone right out there,
will the hurt be deeper if something goes wrong?
havin the courage to love again,
takes greater will and determination.
only time can tell..
hiie all, todae has been a totally tiring dae ,
there were onli miie and another full tymer working with miie .
the other 2 part tymers whu was suppose to work with us todae n tml.
dint came todae . iie really wish they make it tml .
to show tat they are not iresponsible todae, which piss miie off ,
cos todae morning they wake miie up to ask miie go work earlier.
is not fair to miie okiies,
anyways , ytd nitex after 12 , iie called joan and miin,
but they were both slping hahah,
so iie decided to call sonia ,
as iie really nidded someone to tok too, ;
she picked up and iie was lyk so happy .
as at that tym im really sadd and she advice miie alot of tinks,
she told miie it wasnt a tym to lyk tok to her or wadeva now,
iie knw tat is not the tym to do anytink.
she ask miie to take my time and stuff,
hmmm, iie knw exactly hw she tinks,
thou iie knw is not possible to get back tgt ,
cos the feelings will be totally wrong even if we still love each other.
due to the past , the bad memories will just keep haunting us .
after talking to her , iie really tink through and decided ,
to let the past go. instead of keep tinking abt uue .
iie also nidd to forgive myself for the selfishness in the past;
thanks for everytink , (baby)
f0r the last tym , uue will not be tat anymore.
iie swear by the moon& the stars, in the sky,
iie be gone , in uur future ; :))
tkcare& iie hope uue grow up,
and hopefully, uue will understand hw iie am a PERSON now .
earning my own money, surviving with my own money :)
anyways , sweetie DANPINGGGG,
iie have alreadi promise to miit uue in the morning on mondae......
and can iie beg uue not to bring sexy to skool? :(
thanks sweetie for making my off dae a real relaxing one , :)
okiies , im getting my ipod frm uncle on mondae night hopefully, whee:))
nitexx all,
ii l0ve uue still 12/08/06 till midnite :D
uue will never be forgotten. my l0ve,once my everytink :((
c uue tml sweetie , muackssx,
todae went out with sister to find uncle mikeeeeee!
yay! his getting miie a ipod!
but is the super small one , but has a screen and iie can play games in it,
iie tink is the 8gb derhhs ?!
issit good? ehs. *scatch head*
anywayys after dat , uncle gave us some money ,
den we left parkway mall.
AM MIITING SWEETHEART DANPING!
we met up at 5.30 pm plus ,
was late alreadii , but we went to orchard to find her notebook,
but she dint find one tat she lyk at takashimaya.
so we walkedd to cineleisure to find it as well as having a drink;
at gloria jeans, but it was too hot . so we decided nt to.
we went up to 2nd floor and stuff den to mini toons. @_@
dere iie bought her a stupid green soft toy.
AND GUESS WAD!
SHE TINKS TAT IS A PHONE! @_@
l0ls. she really make miie laugh ..
SHE even NAME IT (SEXYYYYY)
and we went to paragon , ate delifrance O_o ;
and we walked around after tat .
on the way, iie bought a belgium choco frm coffee bean.
we sharedd on the way to the bus stop.
den iie send her home :D
gdnitex am tiredd :(
happy to see uue todae :D
iie love her still 12/08/06 x3
sry, dint update my bloggy ytd;
was too tiredd frm workk :D
todae iie and jovy chatted through frenster &&sms :)
and iie guess we both are lyk sadd and disappointedd :(
anyways, todaee while on the way home frm work ,
iie tink abt my family ,
my mum whuse bdae is coming on 15th may & also
mother's dae is on the way .
planning to get her a birthday cake as well as a gift :/
but iie really dunno wad to get for her . hmm.
well , my mum keep tellin miie tat she might be unemployed ;
again after tis year, due to her company contract for 1 yr onli.
iie knew tat if tat happens, iie haf to help her out with e
house hold money and of cos food and stuff .
so im saving really loads of money to survive when tat happens.
while my sister is still skooling in LA SALLE , for another 2yrs.
the expenses for it is alreadi a huge amt .
so now im truely gonna save money for emergency :D
now back to my lyfe,
SHE 's still haf a PLACE in my heart ,
a SHADOW tat wont leave .
they sae to give up ,
but iie will keep holding on ,
and dun wanna let go ,
iie knw tat iie really nidd uue now in my lyfe ,
seeing my workplace ( the les couple )
they just keep reminding of uue .
and of cos iie hope we were back tgt & so loving lyk them :((
iie feel tat no actions frm miie to show uue tat iie really wann uue back,
but all these while i've been wearing the ring tat uue gave miie .
iie onli took them off when im off to sleep.
iie would wanna go tatoo uur name on my shoulder ,
while maybe tats gonna happen in abt few months tym.
iie will get it , somehow, somewhere .
iie knw now , uue gt stead alreadii ,
maybe uue are happy with her,
to tell uue , im happy for uue,
but here iie am feeling lost & sadd ,
tat the girl isn't miie .
iie long for uur kiss, uur touch . :(
baby , would uue gimmi one LAST chance , try, hope ?
iie love uue still 12/08/06
When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that wayTo hear you stumble
when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlesslyAnd when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own
when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Nothing you do can change my mind
I Love you No Matter What
OFF to WORK . :))
iie lovee uue still .
tis blog is re-usedd alreadii
and the url change also,
why iie use tis url , is cos of sum reasons haiis
not-ready-for-gdbye.
tis 4 words mean alot to miie;
tis is the s0ng tat my ex sent to miie be4 ,
cos we nearly break . :((
veri long tym ago lerhhs,
but iim still into the s0ng and of cos HER.
i knw iim stupid for still loving HER,
but maybe cos too many tinks happened,
and i finally grew up,
and n0w iie see tinks more clearly,
and more understanding alreadii.
t0 :HER ;x3
thou we brk up quite long ag0 alreadii,
we both knw the reason and why we brk up,
there's just so many reasons behind it;
and the last tym we met , was a bad memory,
but thou iie hated uue for it,
but iie knw if nt for uue ,
iie might get hurt badly,
every night iie lay d0wn on my bed,
iie would stare in the window ,
tinking abt the past,
the happy memories,
iie would sumtimes shed tears,
iie just feel tat iie regreted all the tinks iie haf done
and if iie had a chance to turn back time,
iie hope we could go back to the FIRST DATE,
:'((
n0w to miie ,
iie dun wanna fall in love again ,
and iie just wanna love uue now.
everyday iie go to work and off frm work,
iie would listen to the song
not ready for gdbye.
iie would feel my eyes feeling so heavy,
but wad can iie do now.
iie really regretted.
each and every minute .
it has been so long since we met up,
iie knw uue haf a stead ,
iie knw tat uue are getting really fine with it.
iie w0nder if uue would gimmi another chance.
a last try, a last hope.
if who iie am , is wad iie have,
& wad if i have is lost...then who am iie?
